Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Why would I get immense anxiety when I saw a notification that my psych like my whole body just had this massive rush which I don’t like. He only replied from my response  to his email about yesterday. 
I haven’t been able to stop thinking about yesterday all day and I have been dissecting his email to find who knows what. 
I just hope he doesn’t think I am stupid for getting so upset and that I’m not being overly sensitive. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @ENKELI @tyme @ArraDreaming @Jynx @Shaz51 @Blackbird11 @Former-Member @Snowie 

How is everyone today?

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey anyone around for a chat?

[Birdofparadise8]

Please, I have no one to talk to, and I can't call KHL. 

[tyme]

We are on the PGC. You are welcome to join @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

No I can't I'm not in the right headspace for that, sorry @tyme 

To many things going over in my mind. I'm very worked up over what happened yesterday and I think I am reading into my psychs email way to much but I can't stop. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Why. This week can't get any worse. My so-called friend texted me back. 

I do care about you and how your doing

But right now the honest truth is I'm just not interested in pursuing a friendship with you right now

[tyme]

Rather than focussing on what hasn't gone well, we encourage you to think about what HAS gone well @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

I can not do that. Nothing has gone well. He literally just messaged me. 

Anyway, don't worry about it if I can't tell you what happened. @tyme 

I am not in a recovery-focused way right now; I am sorry. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Scratch that; I've stopped crying now. 

Okay, one good thing was the Carlton focus group today @tyme